Woke up with this on my mind...

So... lately life has kind of been crazy. Maybe it doesn't seem like that for others, but they aren't in my place riight? yeah. Lost the election which was a bummer. Finally SINGLE. And got real close to losing a great friend. And then there is just school itself. But through out all of this stuff. I'm STILL SMILING... you know why? Because life is so fuckin short to sit here and cry about. And i have, must i have to say myself, the best of friends and even better family. True, i have also reliezed that some of my friends aren't being TRUE friends. But that is ok. Since to them it must mean that im not as important as all the other things in their lives. Since if i meant anything to them, they wouldn't only be hugging me in the hallways and then that is it. Since friends chill, friends talk, friends don't fucking blow you off for other friends or even worst boyfriends. But like i said, I'm not going to stress this anymore. No point. Just hurts me so much that people i used to be able to talk or to chill with are now just people i see everyday but there is no depth to us anymore. And that sucks. For me... but i guess not for them. Since they dont seem to even notice that they dont chill or talk to me anymore. After trying and nothing changes... a girl just gets tired and says "FUCK IT." And that is where i am at right now. But hey... summer is coming. My brother is coming home this afternoon!!! =] My bestest is coming in the summer... and im leaving for vietnam for 3 weeks. So you gain some you lose some right?

maybe....